Feeling unfulfilled. Not sure if I truly like travel or if I'm just curious...
(24 / F / US) Coming at you now from my second solo trip (and second ever international trip). I'm in a hostel in my bunk waiting to get tired enough to sleep while my hostelmates (some solo, some with friends) are all hanging out and mingling and enjoying each other's company. I'm just up here after a couple days of seeing cool stuff and exploring and I just kind of feel... unfulfilled, maybe? Like I'm somehow missing a some kind of vibrant experience that everyone else around me is fully immersed in.
Last year I went to Thailand for 4 weeks and now I'm in Colombia for 2 weeks. (I know that's not much time compared to some of you folks out there, but I think it probably is giving me at least a taste of what longer term travel might be..)
And I don't know. I'm not really feeling that sort of rush and freedom that many others who I've talked to at these hostels seem to feel. It all feels sort of empty. I don't feel any kind of excitement from the independence (I was independent from a young age, so there is no novelty in it for me) and I'm just a spectator in this other culture. I just don't feel like I'm part of it, because how could I be? I have 24 years of entirely different experiences separating me from everyone around me and I am just picking and choosing the parts of this other culture which I can conveniently and safely experience. It just feels fake and empty and is not fulfilling for me.
I think I will still continue to travel because I am genuinely curious about the world. I want to know about the people, the nature, history, culture, etc. I love seeing new things and expanding my known universe. I don't think I will be satisfied without trying to experience any of it as close to firsthand as I can, but I just wish there was something more to it that could bring me excitement from this.
Does anyone else feel the same way? Is there something I should be doing differently? I am sort of just looking for advice from someone who might have felt the same in the past.
Submitted May 14, 2019 at 04:45AM by haras_sarah http://bit.ly/2vTA1Re
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