Chickening out..
Hi all,
I've been following this sub for quite a while now and have arranged some solo trips over the last months. However, the nerves are kicking in and I'm starting to doubt my decisions. I guess I just need to get some thoughts off my chest.
I'm 24F and a month ago I booked a one-way flight to Montreal. While checking my flight details the other day I found out that the airline (WOW air) ceased operations and that flight is cancelled. I guess I can count myself lucky that I didn't get stranded anywhere, but it's terrible to lose 500€ when you're a student who worked her butt off for that money. I've since found an alternative flight, but it was way more expensive and it includes a return flight.
That sucks because I already booked some other stuff. For one, a flight from Montreal to San Diego and an airbnb in the area. My uncle lives in Cali and said I could borrow his car whenever he doesn't need it himself. However, I'm a bit of a scaredy-cat and I don't even like driving places I've never been to in my home country. So I'm already shitting bricks about the whole US driving situation, but I guess there's no way around it if I want to explore the nature.
I also really wanted to see Yellowstone NP and luckily found a Workaway opportunity in Montana where I can stay and eat at a hostel for about a month in exchange for a couple hours of work every day. I booked a flight from San Diego to Montana and told the host that I can help out until the end of May. The hostel is in a "city", but in order to get around you really need a car. So I'll have to rent a car and I'm already worrying about being ripped off or accidentally getting a scratch on the car. And what if I get lost? What if I have an accident?
I'm also super introverted/shy so in a way I'm glad that I'll be staying at a hostel because I'll maybe find some travel buddys/friends, but at the same time how will I get alone time in a hostel?! I don't really drink and I hate parties. What if I don't get along with any of the people there or if the work is absolutely terrible?!
I purposefully booked a one-way ticket to Montreal because I wanted to be flexible regarding my flight back home. That way I could've just left Montana in case the whole Workaway thing is a disaster. Now I'm stuck with this return ticket for the 27th of May (from Montreal).
I still have no flight booked from Montana back to Montreal (weird connections), but found great flights to Minneapolis and from Minneapolis to Montreal. I'm a huge Prince fan so visiting Minneapolis would be amazing. I was thinking that I could go to Minneapolis and book myself an airbnb there in case the Workaway is not working for me. But that's another flight, another airbnb and I really do not know a single soul in Minneapolis - at least I know my host in Montana from a phone interview.
At the moment I'm just doubting all of my plans. At first I was so excited, but as the departure date is getting closer and I'm packing all my stuff all of these what-ifs? are spinning around my head. Add to that losing 500€ because your airline goes bankrupt and now I just don't know if I want to do any of this at all.
Not really sure what I'm looking for here. Maybe some of you guys have faced similar thoughts before embarking on some major trips and can share how they dealt with the doubts? Maybe some of you guys are also going to those places?
IDK, but in any case thanks for reading
Submitted April 07, 2019 at 10:18PM by thatguitarguy101 http://bit.ly/2Kgp6LA
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