How do you deal with pacing and recognizing your limitations?
Hey All,
First off, thanks to everyone who regularly contributes here. I've been reading this sub for a long time and it was a major component in me deciding to explore the world on my own.
Little bit of background. I'm a 28 year old dude, and am a (thankfully) former consultant taking a mid career break to do some soul searching. Kind of cliche hey? But I think it was the right move. So far I am in month 5 with the intent on going to 12 months, however I am hitting a couple blocks. First, I feel like I'm somehow not doing this 'right.' I meet so many people who are just, hammering off things on their bucket list, having so much fun, and I just feel listless and exhausted all the time.
I think the reason I'm in this position is two fold. First, the reason I took a break from my career is straight up burnout. I was working way, way too much. Slowly 40 hour weeks turned to 50, then 60, with spikes upwards of 80 or even sometimes 100. My worst was 117, which is not something I'm proud of. It was a little crazy. I was a little crazy. I did this for a few years and eventually had to call mercy. I had been dreaming of having a grand adventure since I was young, but finances/life always got in the way. Now I have a little bit of cash saved and decided to take this grand trip. The problem is that, well, I'm just so bloody exhausted all the time. Secondly, I injured myself a month ago (sprained foot) and it really forced me to slow down to let it heal, and I feel incredibly behind and guilty about laying around and wasting a month. I don't even remember spraining it, all the sudden I woke up one day and I couldn't walk. And the activities I was doing didn't seem that strenuous to me. They weren't, really, not compared to what I'm used to. Things like this have happened several times, the last time a few months ago when I got sick for 3 weeks, again because I think I was overdoing it. I want to keep going to go trekking in Nepal, volunteer, do all the things I've dreamed of, or at least some of them, yet I can't seem to do anything right now. My foot is finally better but I'm just so gassed. I can't tell if I lost momentum and need to force myself up and out, or if I need to listen to this and sit my ass down.
Maybe I'm unnecessarily stressing myself out, but I just feel kind of defeated. I haven't been having a tremendous amount of fun, and I don't know what I'm supposed to do. You have to force yourself out of your comfort zone to enjoy things, but I feel like I had to learn a hard lesson with my foot, relax or risk re-injuring it. I need to learn and honor my limits, something I'm not used to doing, and ignoring them has an effect that I'm just now dealing with. I just don't want to have to spend this entire trip resting the remainder of my brain and body after abusing it with my work. It scares me, and makes me feel really sad that I sacrificed my ability to enjoy my trip by earning the money to fund it.
How do you deal with your own physical/psychological limitations out on the road? Have any of you dealt with a blocker like this?
Submitted January 31, 2019 at 10:38AM by Vagabondage90 http://bit.ly/2SeIefE
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